 So after my journey into the heart of Arizona, I moved on to Ojai, California. Carly was in Peru by now and I had moved up into the heart of southern California. This place had been calling me so much, I had no idea why. It’s a very small town yet it does have a spiritual past. The spiritual leader Krishnamurti lived in Ojai from the 1920’s, and it has been a place that has been under the radar yet bubbling away for sometime as a mind, body, spirit retreat area for those who wanted to escape from the nearby Los Angeles metropolix. I wanted to see what it was like, away from the health resorts, and feel the energy of the land. I wanted to feel Gaia and my Spirit, it had been a long journey till this point from Shasta and I wanted recuperation. Of course, with this energy, every thought you have, happens :) Welcome to instant manifestation.
I got to Ojai and ran out of money almost instantly. No money, no access to money, just my car! Now I’ve been here before – been in another country without any money, typical Vazmove. I knew this time it had happened for me to really, and truly experience something that I hadn’t quite integrated the first time. And its all about support.
Naturally of course I freaked out the moment I discovered I literally had a $20 note that I had hidden in my wallet for emergency. (What is it with the $20 everytime we get somewhere!!) I needed this for gas (petrol for us English :) because if I ran out of gas money I'd be stranded...so I knew for everything else I had to get without money. I had a laptop and parked outside a local starbucks, hijacking their wireless internet. So essentially I was able to carry on doing LCS work from another country, without any money. Nice one Universe, you got LCS covered but where am I gonna sleep?! I let the feelings of being lost, unsupported flow through me over the first two days as I knew I was going to have to sleep in my car. I drove up to the top of the mountains in Ojai and parked up on the side and this became my sleeping spot. For the next week and a half! The next day something amazing happened. I watched the sunrise from the tops of the mountains at 5.30am, then drove down to the local café. I found enough shrapnel in my luggage over the night to make for a $1 cup of coffee so I could sit in the café. I sat down, opened the laptop and began doing college work. For a small town, there is an unbelievable amount of magic in the air. Throughout the next 5 hours in that café I meet the most amazing, inspiring people, strolling in, getting their morning coffees and chatting about global consciousness. I speak to each one for about 40 minutes and another one will replace them and I end up having profoundly life changing conversations.
 The town is full of conscious beings/lightworkers and surprisingly no egos that come along with it. Its something I had recently become disillusioned about in the spiritual field, and whilst I understand everyone plays a beautiful part in this game, I personally vibrate with those who genuinely want to see this planet evolve and don’t mind being in the background or foreground if it means the group can evolve. And genuinely want to work with one another with no competition. The energy of the mountains here are extraordinary. This is a portal beyond portals for me. Something about this place makes me feel very safe, comforted. It's almost like i'm having a reminiscent flashback.
My day becomes one of simplicity. I need food to survive and a place to sleep, and preferably somewhere to cleanup cos this smell aint gonna get better! Ojai has a place called Meditation Mount, a beautiful scenic area at the highest of their mountains overlooking the entire valley. People come here and meditate all day. I spend some time here, as well as brushing my teeth in the restrooms. I find fruit to eat and know that money will come in a couple weeks so I have to survive on synchronicity and charm! In the meantime I continue to do what I came out to do, meet others who are making a difference and filming them. I somehow find a hot springs that gives off natural minerals that is the most cleansing baths Ive had. So I have everything I need! Food, water, bath. And life becomes much slower and incredibly enjoying. It’s like as soon as I realise all I need are the things Ive already taken for granted, all the other things I have been stressed about in my life become meaningless. All the ideas we create for ourselvs about the things we want are not important. It reminds me of a story I heard once which I love.
A woman was walking down the street and totally happy, smiling at the world and to herself. She passes a shop window and sees a coat she totally loves. She then sees the pricetag and sees how much the coat is and her jaw drops. She wants that coat but she doesn’t have the money. She then becomes unhappy and spends the next month earning money so she can buy that coat. At the end of the month, she has the money, walks into the shop, buys the coat and walks down the street again. Smiling to the world and to herself, she’s happy again.
The morale of the story? This woman was happy before and after she saw the coat, so it was the want of the coat that made her unhappy. She is already happy. And this was my lesson in Ojai. We all have happiness deep inside already, its already there. It’s the wants, the ideas that take us away from our true centre that make us unhappy. When you have nothing, you have nothing to lose….and you become grateful for everything. This statement couldn’t be truer for me as I settled into just being me, and loving that I was allowed to be alive. Maybe it was the 4 months of travelling that led to this point but I was truly feeling it in Ojai.
 In the café, I meet a guy called Pablo, a local filmmaker who is involved in a huge project for an advertising project he has for Sony. He’s got the biggest of deadlines yet manages to spare an hour and a half chatting to me about the rise of divine masculinity and the new source of power in the heart centre...Just another day in Ojai. I am totally inspired by this guy alone, and over the next week I meet him every morning before he goes to work with this team and gets this project out. We talk about the grand natures of the universe and how collaboration is key this year, and a certain project comes up that we see that we may possibly work together on in the future. I realise the incredible power of synchronicity yet again. Simply by letting go and stepping out, we are given even more opportunities towards our destiny.
It amazes me how the Universe works. Many of my journeys to other countries seem so random, to myself let alone other people! And yet the people I meet, always end up being pivotal to something universally profound at a later date. The same happened with Shasta. I had travelled there three times prior to the Mount Shasta retreat, without even knowing I was doing a recon mission for the retreat and understanding the area. Again I’m reminded however that no expectation is needed, simply a natural desire to connect with others. Synchronistically it turns out that Pablo had lived in his car for TWO YEARS! One week was intense enough! He tells me how he went to the local farmers market to pick up food and how you truly realise the hearts in others when you are at this stage. Wow. Here’s me picking fruit off the local orchards and thinking I’m living it real rough, and he’s done this for two years. I see the strength in him, its incredible. Pablo strolls in on the last day at the café and we go deep into chatting about relationships, he’s definitely a filmmaker, cos he leaves me with a profound comment: “Vaz, we often think we’re in love and we hold love with others. Yet in truth, when the love is pure, we don’t have love, love has us” that’s right Pablo. And I feel this with everything we do. The ones we love, the passions we hold, our careers. When its pure, there is no attachment. Love has us. And I can feel myself go off into one of my vazstares into the horizon right now as I think about something Mark from the meetup group said to me last week. “We often think of ourselves as our body and our aura around it. Yet we are our energy field and withiin it is our body that we’re experiencing through. When you truly recognise this, you realise you are not your body, you are not your story.” You are always free, eternal, the infinite expression of existence. Our bodies are like this portal for us to play through, and the more we recognise this, the more it becomes this. The free-er we become. Everything, I am certain now comes down to practice. Daily practice. Retraining the mind, body to understand the new way. It doesn’t just happen, although qwuantum leaps can take us closer, it does take the moments in each day to remind us who we are.
So as I pick fruit from the local trees and eat, and visit the local hot springs for my shower, I become stiller and stiller. And I realise that as soon as I moved through my fears of being unsupported. And I realise the Universe is always supporting us. Always. They took me to this point to realise this within myself, to heal an old belief I had within me that I was unsupported by the Universe during my youth. And by experiencing this level of support I realise they have my back. And that they want me to share this with others. I am living off fruit and the kindness of strangers. I have no direction, purpose out here, simply being with Gaia and my own spirit. And I begin to value the true essence of who I am. I realise how much I have been putting others at the centre of my own Universe and realise just how more I can give to others if I put myself first. And really, lets face it, we all want to be happy, and so its essential we put ourselves first. This is not an ego thing if we are doing it purely. You are that important to this Universe. You are a window for the Universe to express through and that is why its so important we allow the expression of the Universe to flow through us.
 As we move into further blogs, you’ll see me go on and on about kids. Its something that is calling me massively this year, to work with children. Out in Ojai, Heather (who you may remember from last week’s blog) introduced me to a powerful beautiful woman who has created something incredible for children. Meet Courtney Roberts. Founder of Grounded by Nature.
Courtney is an amazing soul who has created a sanctuary for children of the new earth. Courtney says, "Grounded By Nature is based on the premise that each of us is responsible for our own thoughts, words and actions, which affect everything around us, most of all our own perceptions and experiences. We believe exceptional multidimensional awareness and intelligence, backed by the power of effective communication and presentation, will result in positive change and happy people."
I met with Courtney one fine sunny day in early January in Ojai, California, and filmed her at her new school for kids :)
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Listening to Courtney and watching what she has done I am truly amazed at just how much this planet is shifting. People from all over the planet are making the change, in whatever way they can. And they are making huge changes! This project is being partly funded by the government which says it all. The children come along and talk about their dreams! I mean come on, that’s what school is about. They learn through joy, they learn through play, they learn through connection. Courtney is here to remind us yet again at just what life is all about…
Children has been coming up a lot over the past few months for me. Coming back to London I’ve been hearing from amazing friends who are now working with kids, teenagers and its something that my soul is vibing about. The children of the earth are the present and future and they are shaping the New Earth for all of us to live within. We are their guardians, as they are the guardians of future generations. Its an amazing time we live in. It really is time to come together, and step into our light. This planet is incomplete without you. And that is a beautiful and noble thing to remember, it reminds us of why we are here, and why we have been chosen to be here. You have something to give to this planet that no other can give. Shine it out guys :)
Love Vaz
 My next stop after Machu Picchu was the Jungle, from Mountians to monkeys I knew the next part of my trip was going to be big. I had decided to embark on a healing journey with Mother Ayahuasca. For those of you that have not heard of Ayahuasca it is a medicinal plant from the Amazon used by Shamans for healing and as a means of communication with other realms of existence. Shamans have a profound respect for the spirit of the plant holding it at the centre of spiritual life and tradition, seeing the plant as a master, capable of miracles and providing knowledge of the cosmos and nature through the visions that it supplies. I was intrigued! And as I had received a letter from my doctor informing me that the precancerous cells had returned to my cervix, I felt it was time to listen to my body. This is something that is common, however I realised it was time to listen to what my body was saying to me.
Back in September when I received the letter I had felt Mother Aya calling, in fact I was left wondering if the spirit of the plant had in fact been the reason that I was miraculously even in Peru at that time. I had felt it’s power at play and knew that this was something to be respected. I arrived in Lima airport ready for the adventure but my plane was delayed and it seemed the whole airport was as everyone sat around on the floor.
I saw a girl walk past and I just knew in that moment I would talk to her, how or when I didn’t know but a knowing came inside. I didn’t think much more of it, boarding my plane I looked down at my ticket, looking back up I saw the girl sat on the plane, I smiled, I bet I know where I am sitting :o) Sure enough right next to her, ok I thought something is going on here, of all the planes in the airport and here she is sat next to me. The journey came to an end and not a word had been said, I laughed to myself and wondered if I had got carried away in my mind. Just as we were getting off the plane she turned to me and said “where are you off to”? We got talking and it turned out that she had also just come from Macchupichu, she had also decided to do her climb on New Years day but had climbed the adjacent mountain and we realised that we had held a ceremony at the exact same moment. It was beautiful we felt connected through that without sharing many words. I explained that I was about to go on to experience ceremony with Ayahuasca, she laughed as she had experienced it for the first time just the week before, ahh Mother Aya wanted us to talk she said and went on to give me beautiful advice, speaking to me about her experiences and the deep womb healing she had experienced. Wow I thought this was exactly one of the reasons I was going for healing. The messages were already coming in and somehow even though I was alone I was feeling very held by the experience. The beautiful girl looked at me and said "I didn’t catch your name, my name is Carley", I just laughed my name is Carly too! One Carley coming out the jungle and one going in both on our own journeys but divine reflections of each other, you just got to love the Universe :o)
I stepped away from Carly with a spring in my step, I didn’t just get told about that womb journey for no reason, everything was going to be ok. I walked up the stairs and looked at the screen 3 more hours until boarding, right at that moment I heard the low beat of a drum, I looked over and saw two boys drumming, as clear as a bell I heard the message - sit with them, ok I thought and walked over and just sat myself down, no words said. The guy continued drumming, and then began to sing softly Ayahesca, mother Aya, Ayahuasca… I just smiled to myself, ok what is about to happen here. The young guy saw the glint in my eye and began talking to me in Spanish, I wasn’t about to start pulling out my tribally villagey lines without the support of Vaz by my side and after a few times of saying “non sorry”, said in a almost French accent!? They established I couldn’t speak a word of Spanish. But there was a connection already, we could both feel it, Mother Aya was at play once more. Oscar his friend came closer he spoke perfect English and we began to chat about our travels, we were both about to embark on a Ayahuasca ceremony, Oscar and Sergio had done this before and were full of advice, they looked at me with wide eyes and recalled their magical stories and experiences, the more I heard about it, it seemed that these experiences were something you could hardly put into words.
Now a large part of my journey is about choices, I always seem to be torn between two or more choices, it is a theme in my life and one that I am working on :o) In true Carly style I had 2 choices of where I could go to experience ceremony, one was held with 13 Grandmothers and had a divine feminine feel, I would be in ceremony with 25 others and the other was with a Master Shaman and this would be a journey that I would do on my own and had come recommended by a number of respected people. This was something that Oscar and Sergio would help me with I was sure. What I loved about what happened next was that Sergio went on to pass on so much information to me via Oscar translating both of us, both so excited about what was being shared that we were talking away to Oscar at the same time who was managing to share everything beautifully. Sergio then went on to share that they had missed their plane that morning but they felt that the reason that had happened was so that we could all connect, Oscar mid translating was saying oh my gosh I have goose bumps all over, all of a sudden music came on behind us and it was like there was a celebration around what was happening that could be felt by all of us. Sergio then explained the most beautiful story where he had been given a beautiful shield stone by an Indian lady that had been a key part of his journey, she had helped him gain confidence and believe in himself. The stone was so precious to him and he carried it with him everywhere but he said I feel this so strongly this stone wants to be with you, I just couldn’t believe it, I had just met these guys and here we were not even the same language shared having the most beautiful and emotional exchange it was just incredible. They advised me to go with Javier, the Master Shaman and said that was important and gave me the stone for protection, it never left my side.
 I got on to the plane clutching the stone as I flew into the jungle, phew I thought I haven’t got there yet and this has been quite some journey. I arrived at the port and was met by Javier the Master Shaman. I had almost been expecting a long haired south American looking man dressed in robes and in walked Javier, football t-shirt, HUGE smile with his wife and child by his side. Never been fooled by appearances was a strong lesson there, he may have been dressed like an everyday man but the connection to the plant and wisdom in his soul was incredible. Javier had spent two years in the jungle having no connection with humans other than his master, just him and the plants. He learnt about the spirits of all the healing plants, for every illness there is a plant that can cure it. In total rhythem with the plants and Earth Javier had stepped out of the jungle a Master two years later. On the journey in he had already established quite a bit about me, again no English spoken so through a translator and a lot of shared smiles I could tell that he had seen how my journey would begin. We travelled by boat down the river and were collected by a tuc tuc that took us deeper into the jungle. It suddenly hit me that I was going deep into the jungle, alone, but somehow something was driving me on to do this and I had a deep sense of safety from Javier, his helpers and the plant that was already by my side.
 We arrived at the retreat and it is beautiful, a little stream, huts and green everywhere. The jungle surrounding it is deep and as the sun was going down the sounds of the jungle started. They had told me there would be ceremony that night so you are not allowed to eat beforehand so I was advised to rest and they would come and get me at 8pm. I laid on my bed and what happened next I still don’t understand, deep waves of energy poured through me, there was a presence of something with me, I felt as though I was being prepared for the journey that was about to take place. At 8 pm they came to get me, I have never felt so nervous, I took a deep breath, curiosity driving me forward.
I was blessed to have 3 shamans come to the ceremony, 3 shamans and me, my bed seemed so small in the huge tent. I walked up to the alter and I said my intensions out loud, I asked Mother Aya to be gentle with me and heal me with grace, I am not sure that she was listening looking back :o) and I gulped down the glass full of black liquid, eugh I feel sick just thinking back to that moment. In no time at all I could feel the plant at work. Very quickly my head became the cosmos, I was out of my body and I was the stars, I was the Universe I was everything, oh gosh I thought this has just started, where is this going to take me. The crickets in the jungle seemed to be everywhere, sound and the vibration of sound didn’t go in one direction it was everywhere, it filled the cosmos, as did our thoughts and I could feel my mind doing the same. My mind was the Universe, ok I thought I understand what is meant now when they say that our thoughts are creating I had always pictured them coming out of my mind and going in a line out to the Universe but I got it, they were everywhere, they were literally calling out and matching and connecting with what I was thinking, like a magnet. At this point I was in awe of what was happening, almost like it was a taster of what could be and then I became very aware of the intelligence of the plant and my experience shifted. I could feel the spirit of the plant moving through my mind, in and around it, understanding every belief system, thought, experience, that I had, then into my causal body, emotional body and then into the physical. I could feel not only all of these layers but the layers of my soul being worked through and understood with compassion and understanding with a view to what could be done to help right now.
I could feel Mother Aya busy at work in my digestive system the next moment I then felt like what could be described as gold liquid, warm light, suddenly move through my intestine and dis-lodge a huge blockage on my left hand side. I felt it so strongly I said out loud in that moment “oh my gosh” it dumbfounded me, wow I thought I am getting healed from something I never knew I had. In that very moment Mother Aya came in to my mind and explained that the blockage, taking me inside of my body and showed me a literal blockage in my body of drugs, pills and antibiotics, years worth, crystalised inside me. The very drugs that I had been given to cure me back in my 20’s were the very root of my sickness. I had been told back then that taking these drugs for a pro-longed period of time would heighten my chances of cancer, 3 years went by before I had stopped to think about it. They were preventing me from being in pain and at the time that was all I had cared about. I never stopped to listen to my body and what it was trying to tell me. Back then there was a lot of betrayal in my life, betrayal from a boyfriend, friends, in fact Mother Aya had showed me that I felt betrayed by everyone that was around me, this pain then became masked with recreational drugs, I carried on in self destruct. Back out, another weekend was here and hey I was fine. Mother Aya showed me quite the contrary, all that pain, along with all the drugs both recreational and medicinal had to come out and it wasn’t going to be pretty. The whole night I was sick. Violently. The cocktail of drugs inside me, I could taste as they re-visited my mouth, and low and behold I could see them, crystallized, lumps before me. What the heck had I done to my body. I cried to Mother Aya please make it stop and like a stern Grandmother she wisely said don’t try to hold it back, don’t ask to make it stop, celebrate each time your sick, celebrate the fact that it is releasing from you, it is no longer needed in your body.
 The following day I don’t think I lifted my head from the pillow, I was in recovery and there was a deep healing going on inside of me on every layer of my existence. It had shocked me, scared me to think what might have been if this plant had not called me in to help me. The visions that it continued to show me that night helped me understand myself like no other. The wisdom of the plant was deeply humbling and shook me to my very core, this plant had just taught me more than any human could attempt to in a life time.
I truly believe Ayahuasca has been bought forward at this time as a blessing to humanity to heal us, to help us understand our selves, in a deep and profound way, to help us step forward on a path of love by educating us, so that we can make a change by changing ourselves before we look outside at the World.
 Interestingly today we are far more suspicious of nature and it’s natural healing plants and remedies which have been taken by humans for thousands and thousands of years than we are of something like antidepressants which have been created in the last few decades by an industry motivated by profit. Seems so ridiculous when you really think about it.
Our bodies are beautiful vessels’ carrying us though this journey, I now have a deeper respect for myself, where I am at and what my body is saying to me. As something comes up on our bodies it is important to understand what it communicating to us, what is out of balance and what is the root cause?
“No attempt should be made to cure the body without the soul, the great error of our day is that physicians separate the heart from the mind and the mind from the body” (Socrates, Philosopher and Healer)
 Now that I am back in London I have been connecting with our very own modern day Shaman Hareth, looking into the science of the body, how our own unique vibration has been effected by our own unique story. Hareth has been teaching me incredible wisdoms, which I will share in my next blog. It has been a journey of discovery and awakening and one that I will continue to explore day by day. I have been blown away the intelligence of the body, it has its own language and is talking to us in all moments and I am learning to talk back to it with love, which was all it ever wanted :o) We are always looking outside ourselves for the answers but actually our bodies holds all the answers, wisdoms and knowing to everything that we are seeking. The journey begins, with the journey within.
Love Carly
 It has been a long time since the last blog and since then so much has happened, Christmas has been and gone, we have stepped into 2012 and somehow found ourselves in February!? So lets rewind a little here, when we last wrote we were in Mexico, Vaz was off to America and I was tucked up in a little hut dropping into the rhythm of life. I had known that I was going to Peru but living on very little I wasn't sure how this was going to happen. Then it was on the day of the 33's a tax rebate came through, on Vaz's birthday which felt beautiful and left me with enough to book a one way flight to Peru :o) :o) This had been a dream of mine since January 2011 so as I landed into Cusco airport tears of joy poured down my face, this was actually happening!!!??!!!! Oh My Gosh!!!! :o) Thinking of how we had arrived in Mexico with just 20 dollars between us and here somehow a trip to Peru had come true the words trust and faith had never felt so powerful as when I landed on that soil.
There is a magic about Peru that reaches beyond words, a wisdom in the land that just shoots through your body the minute you arrive. Ancient beauty and a deep love for Mother Earth that flows out of the people that live there and humbly work the land, they are so connected to the Earth. It is amazing arriving somewhere new and absorbing everything around you, it allows you to drop into the child like wonder of life and it reminded me how important that was to hold on to.
 With the dream of being at Macchu Pichu for the first light of 2012 deep in my heart this was where I was heading to first. I arrived at the station and had arranged to meet my friend Steve, as I was staying with him I didn't make any plans, I was ready to unite with him and play. The train ride in was magical and I was feeling quite blown away by the fact that I was actually there. I was still in shock that this was happening. I stepped off the train and wandered through the crowd, no Steve, I wait.. and wait a little longer, everyone leaves, new people come... still no Steve. OK I thought something is at play here, I am trying to align to anothers vibration but this is not flowing so I must honor this, in that case I thought if I wasn't meeting him what would I want to do right now? Rest and eat :o) I began to wander into town, backpack and me ready for adventures but as I was feeling pretty tired, I decided that I would sit in a restaurant have a tea and contemplate my next move.
Goddess Time
No guide book, just a smile on my face, I wondered where I would stay that night. I sipped my tea and was thinking to myself ok so what am I manifesting here. I realised I was craving some goddess time, this felt like it was meant to be a goddess trip, Vaz was so bored of hearing this, short of buying a wig he had been very patient with me but I could almost feel him laughing at me thinking this all the way over in America. Well I thought here I am, lets find the goddess in me and connect with Mother Earth and that is all I need. Perfect! In that moments decision I was feeling so good, I looked up and in walked Matilda, a beautiful goddess Mother that we had met in Mount Shasta! We looked at each other and screamed, Matilda had just flown in from Australia, at the last minute she had decided she just had to be in Macchu Pichu for the first light of 2012, the interesting thing is she had thought of me, not even knowing I was going but hadn't got an e-mail address for me, boom here I was anyway :o) The whole restaurant stared at we screamed at each other, where are you staying she asked, I had no idea, well Matilda replied I have booked two beds and I am staying right here, you are in the lobby! OK I thought this is going to be a good trip and goddess time is ON!
 Matilda and I had both bought tickets to do the climb on New Years day which was great as most people booked for New Years Eve but we were on the same frequency and in flow. We decided to go up to Macch Pichu also on NYE and had met a beautiful guide in the town the day before called Saul, his heart was so big it actually seemed it might jump out of his chest. Saul invited us to join him in a small ceremony he was holding, now Machu Pichu is pretty big with lots of different areas so how we were going to find him I had no idea, I asked him about this and he replied “I just have a feeling you will”. The following day Matilda and I arrived at Machu Pichu, we found a spot and sat in deep meditation and resonance with the land, taken to a place beyond words. As we opened our eyes we saw the beautiful Saul :o) perfect timing he said we are just about to start, it seemed we were in the right spot. He pulled out his flute and passed around 4 cocoa leaves, each to represent the 4 directions, 4 windows for us to make a prayer and set an intention for the New Year upon us. Saul spoke so beautifully about the generations to come, what we were here to do, to pave the way, a new beginning, a year of change, unity, letting go of the old and stepping in to the new, we kissed the cocoa leaves and blew them into the wind, thank you 2011 for all that you gave and 2012 we welcome you in love. There was a family in the ceremony and they stood and hugged, tears flowing from Mum :o) a moment that will stay in my heart.
 The rest of the day was spent sitting or walking bare foot and connecting with the land, feeling the stones, resonating with the vibration and wisdom that runs through them, my heart sunk to see so many tourists passing through and not taking a moment to stop and actually feel this beautiful land. When you go to different points on the Earth there is an exchange of vibration between you and the land, your heart vibration is unique, feeling the joy of connecting with the land is so powerful, playing, singing, let the land feel your heart. It felt so beautiful doing this in Mexico and Peru, with intention and touch seeding light into the ruins, the beautiful land that has been forgotten or so often miss-understood and filling it with light with the power of our hearts. I felt like I was playing like a child, exploring, laughing, singing, humming doing this wherever we go is so powerful, a park in London, on top of a temple in a jungle it doesn't matter, remember the power of your heart.
 The following day we rose at 4am, I was intent on seeing the first light of day at Machu Pichu and so it was. We started our climb of Wayna Pichu at 7am, Matilda, Jackie, myself and Steve - yes Steve and I found each other in divine timing :o) Representing the four directions on this beautiful day we set off and decided to head to temple of the moon first off which was half way around the mountain. Here we carried out a sacred ceremony which was simply beyond words. It felt so beautiful as strangers came and sat with us feeling drawn by the feeling and compelled to join. Matilda and I came out of meditation and looked at each other, it was time to do the climb, we were in exactly the same flow and ready to go. The climb was tough but Matilda was full of an energy that blew me away, she may have had a walking stick but my goodness she floated up there I am sure. As you get to the very top there is a cave, like the opening of a womb, you climb through, push through in fact, it's a tight squeeze and you emerge at the top of the Mountain, oh my I thought ANOTHER re-birth, gasping for air in the heights of the mountain, we came to rest at the absolute peak of the mountain.
 What happened next was so deep, if there ever was a question in my mind in the existance of great spirit, our ancestors and all that be, it was eradicated in this one moment, the feeling that rushed into my body, my heart, the deepest part of my soul, a gratitude, a deep love poured into my heart and I felt the presence of source energy and our ancestors so strong. There is so much thanks for us all at this time, of being here, of creating change and for giving our hearts. The way it was felt was so, so deep and this message is for us all. Thank you for being here, for showing up, for standing in a dense land and shining your hearts, thank you for your courage, not just in this life time but in many, many to get to this point, change is happening, the time has come for it to change.
The tears that came from me, came from the deepest part of my soul, I sobbed so deeply, in that moment I remembered everything that has been done, the work to get to this point, the love, the commitment to it all and also feeling what is coming bringing tears of relief and joy. We are doing this. I suddenly realised that I had this very vision of this moment back in 2011 and this had come true, if this was the begining there is so much good to come, we must stand together, stand united, remind each other of what we came here to do, to be love, to play, be happy and create the ripples of change from deepest place in our hearts. Remember the power of our love.
Holding on to this feeling I was keen to create this feeling in London, Vaz and I held a workshop last Sunday and everyone gathered at the end to create a Love vortex, 100 people gathered together feeling the power of love showed how much words are not needed, just experiencing that feeling of love and togetherness is all we need, move out of our heads and into our hearts, by standing together and feeling this is all we need to do to shift the World. Imagine that.
Gratitude
Change comes from inside of us and as we shift the World does too. Coming back to London we have seen the changes taking form, taking on the Director role this week has felt so beautiful as it represents the change that is happening right now!! Male and female energy coming in to balance, working together in unity and harmony. I love that Vaz has worked so hard to create the LCS community, dedicated the past 5 years of his life to this yet he holds no ownership of the group, it is a collective heart and standing with Vaz in balance feels so graceful, like we are standing as we were always meant to be.
 Thank YOU so much for all your beautiful words and heartfelt wishes. It was so nice to hear that from you, feeling your support means so much and spurs us on. We have a vision for LCS - we are here to grow and explore together and this is what we want to represent a community of joy and exploration. Lots more socials coming up, adventures and being together. We are calling out to the Universe for a property so that we have got a base to unite, a social hub and community to play and we believe this can happen with the power of all of our hearts.
Lots more news to come so we will be in touch with you regularly as we co-create together.
One Love and Magical Wishes,
Carly
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 We’re back! It’s been a while since our last blog and we’ve missed writing them! So much has happened since I last wrote, I was leaving Mexico as of the last blog and I then travelled to Sedona and Ojai, California and met incredible and amazing people and had profound spiritual experiences. I am now back in London and have a lot to share from my travels.
So, leaving Mexico was big. I knew I was heading back to the States but had no idea why I was going, where I was going and how I was going to survive with literally dollars in my pocket. I arrive at Los Angeles airport and it hit me. Where am I gonna go? I had $400 to last for food and accommodation and decided to do something purely instinctual. I got on a train and went to see how far it could go west with the money I had...ending up in a town called Flagstaff, near the sacred site of Sedona!
Sedona's energy is very different to other sacred sites I have been to. There is a magic here, I feel like I have been here before, it feels very Close Encounters of the Third Kind. Well, they're about to have a Close Encounter of the Vaz Kind cos I have a camera with me. Below is a little blog I made through my trip in Arizona!Meet the Light Being Naomi! And Heather Green, an amazing beautiful soul who has become a great friend. Heather I met so randomly in Sedona, yet of course nothing is random. I discovered Sedona's Center for the New Age and decided to explore it and see what they had to offer. Upon entering, I saw her picture on the wall and was immediately drawn to her and saw that she had a class that evening. I went along and we ended up connecting and discovering a mutual love - Ojai! It was a place on my map and I didn't know why and she was key for the next step of my journey. She had lived there before and gave me many links for when I headed over, which of course I followed through and met some amazing inspirational people. Check out her Message for 2012 at the end of the blog which is an awesome message for us all. Excuse the sound, you may have to turn the interviews up quite loud, this was my old (ancient) camera. Better ones coming up in next week's blog :) Big love to Heather, please see her website here for more details on what she does. Her newsletters contain activations and energy updates: http://www.tealhealing.com/ Surrender...and Receive
After a 12 hour Amtrak to Sedona I get to Flagstaff and hit 12 feet of snow! It had literally snowed overnight and my plans to head to Sedona and camp by there were out the window as I couldn’t even leave the Amtrak station. No taxis were going down there, so I got on my laptop and thought to myself, lets just see what happens. I begin chatting to Aang, my buddy from South Africa and we have a catchup through skype. I thought to myself I cant have travelled 12 hours to go straight back to California surely! Speaking to Aang, he helps me look for a local hostel in Flagstaff. I find there’s one immediately next to the station! If it had even been 10 minutes away no taxi would have taken me. Thank you Universe! I get to the hostel and explore Flagstaff. And fall in love with this town. This town is awesome. The people are awesome. The vibe is awesome. And when I say awesome, everyone I meet is radiating some kind of inner joy, peace, happiness. Or maybe its me seeing through my own vibe, who knows. But it feels awesome.
 There's a saying in Flagstaff, "Only in Flagstaff", and its true. Only in Flagstaff would you see this written on the wall in the restroom of a cafe. (Click for larger image, note the 5D message in the top left :). So as I walk around Flagstaff through the snow, I realise that the Universe has brought me here to pause, and appreciate something that travels the world wherever we go. Our own Spirit. As I walk down random streets and take life much slower, I see what is everywhere, the smile of the Universe in each and every person. It’s there if we see it in ourselves. This is the beginning of my journey into my own Soul, and as you’ll discover from my journey to Ojai california which I’ll go into more details in upcoming blogs is that when let go of everything, we see who we are, and what is around us.
I realise some kind of theme throughout my trip. Let go, Surrender…and Receive. Let go, Surrender….and Receive. No matter what the situation looks like, there is always a light and a reason and meaning. You always receive. Trust in your heart, always and everything will be shown. This has been my main lesson throughout my life of course and all of ours, yet recently I’m beginning to understand just how important this is. Our hearts are the gateways for our Divine sacred souls to live through. It is the doorway to our deepest soul desires and highest purposes. Yet the heart speaks so softly we have to truly pause to hear it, and that’s one of the things I love about it. It is so at peace with itself it doesn’t even need to shout, just asking us to listen.
I'll be sharing much more of my experiences through the last two months of travels, in the meantime, alot has been happening in London! It's been SO great to see all of you again, and those I havent, a big hello to you. It's great to be back with the group and to feel even stronger and centered than when I left to move forward with another growth stage for LCS.
 All in Grace and Divine Timing: The unfolding of the Universal Vision
So as many of you already know Carly has taken the role of LCS director. It’s incredible how things unfold. When I first set up LCS 4 years ago I literally had no idea what I was actually creating. I was bubbling away from love and passion and thinking this was just a hobby whilst I tried to find meaning in my life. Always the case, our hobbies become our work. It’s the things we never expect that turn out to be our paths, as Ive found from speaking to others as well. For 4 years I pretty much ran the meetup/college singlehandedly. There were plenty of volunteer support of course and am so grateful to everyone who came to help, however to run something like this, it is a 24/7 job. 10 hours a day on basic expenses. Many have come and gone with the college and of course everything is designed and so I waited, and always felt there would be a female balance to LCS. And that when the time was right, LCS would be handled by two people representing unity consciousness. After 4 years I kind of forgot about it! And then Carly comes along out of the skies, and shows me that the Universe really does have an amazing divine design going on. And has shown me that there is always a divine plan going on whether we see it or not, even if it takes 5 years to manifest!
 I saw this picture on facebook yesterday and it’s so true and and reminder for all of us on our journeys. Success is of course measured how you want it to be, and wealth seems to be a main indicator for many people of success. For me it is aligning with a vision, not simply a vision we have ourselves but one that the Universe has for us, and holding a Unity vibration has been core for LCS, for me.
Don’t worry she maybe director but I’ll still be relaying the Carly Classics through the blogs. Its great to work alongside a grand wise priestess, disguised as a 3 year old. Guys we are about to launch many exciting projects, that have been bubbling for weeks, we are so excited and they are the foundation for tremendous change. We'll be calling on all of you, for all your strengths, passions and drive. We're aiming high this year, its 2012 :) Be free everyone, love Vaz
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COMMUNITIES, LOVING OUR SHADOWS, ANGELIC HUMANS  We have GREAT news!!!!!
Some of you may be familiar with Eric Willis. I met him last year as I was setting up the LA meetup (which he later took over). Eric had been running a popular online newsletter portal called Evolve. Last year he told me a vision he had of creating communities and since then we haven't had that much contact. I hear from him recently and discover he has gone full steam into creating one of the most incredible self sustainable, sacred projects I have seen to date, called Mahalaya....and he has asked us to come on board!!! We are incredible excited and the Community Vision has just skipped 5 steps! Click here to discover more!
Mahalaya is a sanskrit word derived from Maha meaning "Great" and Alaya meaning "the abode" or "Soul of the World". Together it translates as "The Dwelling of the Great Souls".
This incredible project will focus on creating a community in both Hawaii and Ecuador. The entire project will have its own accomodation, Birthing Center, School and be entirely self-sufficient.
 All buildings are based on bio-architecture which uses rounded corners and sacred geometry to "create fractal charge fields that are implosive in nature and encourage life, positive DNA resonance".
The project is also utilising the ley lines below the ground, it is essentially being built, humble before Gaia and working with her in every means. (we like).
Mahalaya will also include a Life Center, which will effectively bring in Speakers, Facilitators around the world and create a hub of pioneering Spiritual & Consciousness exploration; partnering with organisations such as LCS.
As well as a Healing Center and many other projects that are designed to give back to the world as well as the community itself.
 _The Mahalaya project is ready in design, concept, team and skills and is now ready to go public and seeking the initial backing for the first foundations of the communities.
We'll be visiting Eric in Los Angeles in January to move forward, see in person what the project is about and connect in. Synchronistically, we were heading to Ecuador for options on community projects there. What's been incredible here is the divine design behind all things. Meeting Eric last year. Myself and Carly travelling to Central/South America based on guidance and pure faith that we are being led somewhere, unknowing where or what it is!
We'll keep you updated on everything that occurs with Mahalaya as we journey to meet with Eric and the board of directors. We'll see how this project is working and our part within it, and if its all good to go we will rocket this out to the moon and back. We'll be assisting by putting all our passion and energy into taking Mahalaya to the next step, and spreading it in all ways to make it a reality.
The new communities that are being developed on the planet are so metaphoric of the new consciousness. Gaia is birthing a new humanity, one that is working with her and honouring her cycles and movments. It is happening everywhere. You are already part of one, the London Spirituality Meetup Group is a community, and you have a community that you call your family, and one your friends. All communities are essential and radiate out fields into greater mass consciousness. The new communities that are being physically built are a statement to the new ways and a bow to the ancient old ways that are now coming back. Back to living, working with and respecting Mother Earth, teaching children the Real-ities of life, working to evolve consciousness.
The New Earth is here :))
"There is a life-force within your soul, seek that life.
There is a gem in the mountain of your body, seek that mine.
O traveler, if you are in search of That
Don't look outside, look inside yourself and seek That."
~ Rumi
Awakening Love
So whilst major things occur externally, major things have been occuring internally! As you may have read from our other blog, me and Carly have temporarily parted to go on deep inner journeys, focused upon transmuting any remaining low densities into love, so we can truly work next year from the purest place as we know we have a lot of work to do together. It naturally coincides with my soul knocking on my third eye for ages to be heard! And he's majorly happy as I begin to listen. And he is definitely speaking! He's raining on me a thousand colours, the rainbow of my true nature. Each of us, You, are infinite and waking up to this truth super-fast.
Before this began to occur however, there has been much deep emotional clearing which I want to mention as I know many of you are going through this too.
The last six weeks I have been riding the energy shifts, scaling the highest mountains of my emotions and traversing the deepest valleys. The Universe has asked all of us to face our shadows....and LOVE them! And so like many of you in recent weeks I have been facing mine full on. There's nothing like a head on steam train called Vaz's Inner Child to get me going. After massive transformations upon transformations and inner journeying, I've realised of course that its just so simple. Its always the most simple perspectives that take us on a circular journey to realise, its so simple:
 Life is flowing.
It just Is.
Its our resistance to life's flow that causes us pain.
We resist because our beliefs are trying to challenge what already Is.
Let go of our beliefs, and we let go of resisting.
We flow.
Sounds simple, and it is.
However, letting go of our beliefs is not simple, because they want to hang on, for dear life!
These energy shifts are working on our deepest cellular memories right now and drawing everything out of our system. They are the bottom of the barrel, heaviest energies that have been in us, and defined our life. They relate to our upbringing and our external conditioning. You came here as Love, you experienced something quite different the majority of the time! Its now time to remember who we are.
"Most of the shadows of life are caused by standing in our own sunshine"
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson These parts that we are releasing now are of course beautiful in themselves and this was what I had to truly do in order to transmute them. To truly love our aspects involves truly seeing them in light. Can you see your own "dark" in light? Can you shine your Light upon them? For that is all they seek. Can you recognise all your reflections, situations, people around you are projected from within? Your outer reality is You. Pure reflection. Love outside, Love inside. Love inside, Love outside. And this is what we're being asked to truly do, not just superficially love them but totally fall in love with all parts of you. The Universe thinks we can do this, and do it fast! I think we can too. We are formidable lightworkers and have trained for this lifetime for aeons. It may seem so tough but its already happening. Through our process of re-loving ourselves, we are also learning massive compassion for humanity.
 _What I'm discovering now is that I am beginning to genuinely fall in love with certain aspects of myself. How do I know this? Because the way I am reacting to things that would usually deeply trigger me has changed, there is not the same emotional charge, there is a different take to similar situations. I am seeing their divine purpose in my life, they have served me, trying to protect me. Now their time is done and I choose a new game. They are releasing. And the Universe is doing its best to test! And its testing all of us now, to make sure. Make sure everything is out of our system. So you can Be Love. Each time, we shake more off these deep core limiting beliefs.
You are beautiful. In all ways. Every part of you is beautiful. Every single part. Love you as the Universe loves you. Unconditionally. Totally. Completely. You are already complete, you are simply letting go of the illusions that you have gathered along your journey. You are Perfection pretending to be imperfect. The Infinite pretending to be finite. The Oneness pretending to be many. Pure Divine Sacred Love pretending to have fear, pain, suffering. Now is time to recognise your true nature.
The Vortex
 _During one of my recent shifts, I contacted Yantara Jiro and spoke to him by Skype. Yantara is our very own sixth dimensional being who happens to exist in our physical reality ;) I asked him for clarity on what I was currently experiencing. He beautifully and clearly shared many great heart centred truths with me. And it was pivotal to one of my recent shifts (thank you Yantara!). It reminded me of something so important. Yes we are always going to transform our own issues ourselves, but we are in a physical Universe surrounded by beautiful amazing wise souls. And everyone, every single person on this planet has something to share that can shift us. When at a crux, we can turn to another.
_During these times we are receiving many emails from you guys going through the turbulent waves of these final, final shifts into our subconscious. I would say to all of you to find others on a similar vibration, find beauty in words, poetry, art, music, these are all natural healers. Nature is our greatest balancer. Step into the joy and the rest will take care of itself, this is the greatest magical key for fifth dimensional living. Yantara referred me to Abraham Hick's Vortex, which had come into my space so much recently so I took the blatant hint this time and began relistening to some of the YouTube videos. And again I was pulled into the wonder of this magical Universe. I was pulled into the Vortex. Into my Vortex. We are literally waving between 3D and 5D and the key to staying in 5D is to stay in Joy. No matter what.
Listen to these words in the video below, how do you feel? Expanded, Joyful, Elated? You are in the Vortex. That is how easy it is to get into it. You don't need to work your way to get there, to suffer to get there. Its ever-present. And we are rocking between 3D (out of the Vortex) and 5D (in the Vortex) as we release our old patterns. In the end, as always, 5D is already here waiting for us to experience it. _Next Move: Hearing the Call
We're about to head into an even deeper space, and it looks like some camping, being with nature and simply having some time before the Great Year! There's no real need to go to such extremes for self-awakening, yet there are times in our lives we are faced with the opportunity to grow at a phenomenal level. An opportunity to deeply connect with ourselves and really awaken our souls. And this opportunity has come up, and I know by giving my soul the space it needs to awaken, life will get phenomenally easier. I'll let you know what I discover! As always I'm finding we all find balance from the most simplest things in life: Physical exercise, Nutritional Health, Meditation/Being with Nature, Carrying out our Hobbies/Joys. If you can bring these things into your daily life, in whatever way, these energy shifts will undoubtedly get easier. As you nourish yourself, you align with your beautiful unique vibration more and more.
Again, going with just guidance and a handful of cash, as always knowing the Universe has got an amazing masterplan for ourselves, our work and the betterment of ourselves. They love us to trust dont they?! Our next blog may well be in 2012! So in the meantime guys, we send a huge amount of love to you!
"I saw the angel in the marble and carved until I set him free" ~ Michelangelo  _As always its Joy that will get us through. And its Joy that is the key to life I feel. Live in Joy! Thats what the Universe wants, and hey why should I argue with that? Joy is such a high, pure vibration. All illusions dissolve instantly in the presence of Joy. What makes you Joyful? Experience it, Live it, Cherish it, Hold it, Embrace it, Be it!
I have littered my blog with music, poems, pictures this week! Its been coming into my space everywhere and is proving to be so freeing. These words and music remind us who we are, and speak the wordless language of the heart. You are now entering the most magical, most anticipated year in our known history. Whatever occurs, expectation or not, it will be phenomenal.
Why? Because humanity is awakening at a phenomenal rate. And most importantly, You are remembering who you really are, you are remembering that this is a game and in reality you are Infinite Love in physical form.
You are the new Human Angels walking on this planet. Angels who dare waking up to their true angelic presence and eternal joyful state. The fairy tale is coming true folks. Get ready for a blast and Bliss. 2012 is for the planet, and for you.
Something to get you in the mood and remember who you are...
See you in 2012 beautiful Angels!! We love you all :))
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 Following on from our 11:11 ceremony I have been going back deep into my roots of Mother Earth, having been known as Cosmic Carly it felt good to be here in full form, in my body and falling in love with life. I could feel my inner child awakening as everything in life felt like an adventure and something new to learn.
This week I decided I was going to learn the Mexican way, there are so many beautiful rituals carried out here which really align you to the rhythm of Earth and the cycles we are in so I decided it was time to get ceremonious with myself.
I started this by taking part in a Tamascal, this is a deep cleansing of your mind, body and spirit, traditionally this is carried out once a month and it is a chance to cleanse out what is no longer serving you and welcome in guidance for the next phase/cycle of your life. The ceremony takes place in a dome like structure which is designed using sacred geometry, when it is constructed a lot of prayer and intention goes into the land with offerings put into the ground. Stones are then heated in a fire which also holds strong intentions. In this case Juuan was playing the flute into the fire to set the intentions for the night.
There is the most beautiful story behind this, Juaan had told us how much he loves music and that he wanted to get a flute while he was here in Mexico, he had been looking everywhere but only had 2 days of his trip left and hadn't found one. Now before coming out to Mexico Juaan had a dream that he gave one if his most treasured necklaces to a gentleman, he didn't think much of it at the time but had remembered the dream quite clearly.. That day Juaan had gone to a ceremony and there before him was the exact man in his dreams, he loved this necklace because it was made up of all of his favourite crystals and he had made it by hand but he just knew it was meant for him. He walked up to the gentleman and explained the story and gave it to him and the gentleman turned around and in exchange gave him a flute!!! How amazing is that! This very flute had been used in the Hopi ceremonies, WOW you got to love the Universe! So as Juaan stood playing the flute into the fire I knew this ceremony was going to be powerful.
 I sat in the dome with the heated rocks in the centre, it is completely pitch black and your whole body is wet with sweat. I couldn't help but resemble it to a womb, it actually took you back into a memory of being in the womb space of your mother. Each of us joined in the singing, chanting and drumming and you go around and announce one by one what you would like to release. I announced to the group that I would like to release guilt. Goodness knows what they thought I was guilty of, robbing a bank or something but guilt is a vibration I would really like to lovingly release. I love that it shows that I care so much but guilt can cripple you into a place of non movement, guilt is the pure opposite of love, sometimes you can find yourself feeling guilty for feeling happy or for making a choice that at the time made you feel happy and believe me I haven't robbed any banks so it was time for this one to go.
It felt extremely powerful announcing this to the group, nothing explained, just said and then we sang to the spirits. Heat swirled around my body and I swear I could feel it drawing out the cells of my body. New intentions were set and the priesstess sang blessings for the next steps of our journey. I could feel the change in the air, held in this womb I was ready to be re-birthed, the door opened and it was so symbolic as the darkness is met by light, you climb out they pour water over you and wrap you in a white cloth, this literally was a rebirth!! I walked home knowing that I was not able to understand the depths of what had just happened.
The following week I was in full student mode and loving following the local traditions when I came across a traditional aztec saying:
Dont take anything personally
Do your best every day
Speak your truth
So simple, yet wise words. Dont take anything personally feels like key words for this time, we are all moving through life times of stuff at the moment whether we are aware of it or not. This time round we dont have to burn at the stake, be forced into silence or betrothed all we have to do is love. When you stop and think about it all it is so beautiful, that this soul, whether its your Mother, your father, your girlfriend, brother, friend or acquittance is helping you experience a feeling so that you can release it and return to love, that's beautiful.
So if someone right now is upsetting you or drawing up emotions, firstly whatever they are saying dont take it personally and then see the beauty in the fact that this soul is helping you move through these emotions and release them, in this realisation it allows you to move into a deeper space of love as you see the beauty in it, in them, in the pain, in the release and meet it all with love. This is the magic of the Universe.
 In wonder of it all Carlos, the Shaman we had connected with had seen my passion for learning and connecting with Mother Earth and suggested I carry out another traditional ritual of burying myself, I was keen. A few days went by and then I decided today is the day, I am doing it! I walked up to Moses the owner of the site we are staying at, now if you have read some of our other blogs you will have gathered that my Spanglish is not the best, even the Carly classic mime was going to be tricky explaining this one... "Moses can you bury me?" A few mimes later, me on the floor, a spade in hand, we had both established that I am not normal! Eventually he gathered what I wanted and kindly obliged. I will never forget his face "Miss Carly I will come and find you in half an hour", no just leave me I said, "Just leave you"!!? Well it's not every day you get buried by Moses I was going for it!
As I laid in the Earth I offered my heart to Mother Earth, we are always asking for what we need, it felt beautiful to say, you give me everything I need, what do you want from me? Here is my heart. When I finally opened my eyes the sun was going down and the first thing that I noticed was that the clouds were shaped like diamonds, nearly all the clouds were diamond shaped as were the spaces where there were no clouds, EVERYWHERE was the clear shape of a diamond, perfect straight edges!! Wow I thought this is a strong message but what does this mean? After as nice long shower I checked my mail to find an e-mail from a beautiful lady that we had connected with in Shasta, spirit had heard my question as there she had written all about the new diamond frequency that we are moving into. "It is the symbol of us healing ourselves, the planet and the bringer of Wisdom to us". Wow I thought this is so beautiful. It is true we are healing us, we are healing the planet and we hold the wisdom that Mother Earth needs, it's in the store house of our hearts. The way this message came up and followed by the day it was all blowing my mind!
 So here I am like a child in awe of this place, of what is happening around us. This is such a special time it is important to stop and reflect on it all, see the changes that are happening in your life and in the people around you. Remember we are what this planet has been waiting for, we are the prophecy, we are at this time of change now and it is beautiful.
In line with all that I was feeling I pulled a card from a deck of cards that I have and it said the following:
As the nurturing soul of Earth is once again recognised and allowed to re-establish herself in nature and in society, the true inspiration of the divine will express itself in Oneness in your daily life through the building of community - Celestia
 The timing of this message was oh so perfect as shortly after Vaz received amazing, amazing news about the community, (Vaz has written full details about it in his blog so I will refrain form going through it all too) but the community is manifesting in a way that is beyond beautiful. We had decided that Ecuador felt the right place to do it as this had been coming up a lot for us so we knew we were being guided there and then this came in for Ecuador!
What I love about this is Vaz and I set off with the vision of the community in our hearts, no real idea how any of this would work out and collectively we are making this happen. The support and love from you all, each part allowing the next step to happen is what has bought this in, together we are creating dreams. How beautiful is that!!
So it is all systems go! And it goes without saying that I am excited about this, in fact it seems to have left me speechless!! The vision that Eric has created is so beautiful everything designed around sacred geometry, love and passion, he has created the most amazing structure to work from and is most definitely singing the same tune as our hearts.
We will be in touch with the next big update at the start of next year. Vaz and I are taking time off over Christmas before the action starts next year so this will be the last blog from us until 2012. For now though we want to say WE LOVE YOU, Have a Beautiful Christmas, have a Happy New Year and we will be in touch in 2012 with full plans and updates on the next steps for the community co-creation yaaaayar!
One Love, MAGIC and Christmas blessings!
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 So much happened this week it was a week of change and re-birth, again! with a literal birthday in there too as Vaz celebrated his 33rd birthday. Tulum seemed to activate us on a mad level, Vaz channelled the last chapters of his book, so very proud :o) Vaz`s Book and I recorded the lightbody experience we had been channelled to do, it was a time of activating and sharing the love and that felt good. Lightbody Activation. After few days in Tulum we connected with Carlos the shaman that was holding the 11:11 ceremony and instantly loved him, a beautiful soul ringing with ancient wisdom. We arranged to meet him so that we could have a cleansing with him the day before the ceremony. Vaz was first up, now since we have been away I have noticed that Vaz has a mad connection to the weather, if he is happy it is sunny but if he gets upset cue the thunder storm, no joke! As his ceremony started rain dropped down over us for the exact 5 minutes of the cleanse and I knew this was part of his cleansing, Mother Gaia is here with us and sharing our expereinces too. Then right there in the middle of it was a rainbow. I have a thing about rainbows and this year right at a point of magic a rainbow has appeared. This was going to be another moment that was for sure.
 I stepped forward to Carlos and he carried out a beautiful ritual calling on the 4 elements, our ancestors and great spirit. He spoke gently but his words went right into my heart, yes change was coming in every respect, he described it as my tower coming down and it was time to rebuild it ALL, wow that was a big one! He then told me that I was safe and I would spend time on this beach and make changes in all areas of my life. I was digesting this slowly but somewhere inside my soul knew this was right. He then pulled out an egg and proceeded to run it over my body, on breaking the egg he told me everything about my health, well being and was even able to talk about my family from the way that the egg had rested on the glass. He showed me the marks on the egg and explained that this marked a time when I was in hospital a few years back and had an operation on my tummy, he was right I had my appendix out then. I was fascinated, all this from an egg! Wow I thought nature knows, nature holds the knowledge to everything. This went on to be a very strong theme of the week.
 The following morning we set our alarms for 5am so that we could connect in with loved ones for their 11:11 in the UK and soul family in Egypt. As the sun rose, their 11:11 came and we connected in with our hearts and the most beautiful feeling washed over my body, washing into my heart and my entire being as I could feel us all stand united in love, for change and peace, a powerful moment to treasure. I'm not sure what happened after that because I actually missed my own 11:11 morning and tuned in at 11:17! Now for those of you that know me well I have been going on about this day for the whole year, so how that happened I still don't know but at 11:17 I sent out my heart to the Earth, to the central sun of the universe and celebrated the movement from separation to love and unity. The evening came around and the most beautiful ceremony started, 21 souls gathered on the beach. I was blown away by how many different nationalities, all colours and creeds had been drawn to this small stretch of beach, we stood in a circle strangers in person but united in our hearts and sent forward our intentions for this time of change. Carlos stood there and with the most beautiful look in his eyes said this is what my ancestors prophesied, this is what the hopi's prophesied too that one day we would stand united, all nationalities and together we would bring change. We all stood and looked at each other with a knowing smile. This is a night I would never forget.
 That night we were blessed with the presence of a Mayan king, he had come to share some of the Mayan wisdom that had been passed down through the ages, through his ancestors, it is time to share this knowledge so that it could be spread to where it would be heard. The King did not speak English, there was a translator there but Vaz and I both felt by listening you could sense his essence, his pride in delivering this message and the origins of the wisdom. Every bit of knowledge that was shared came back to the same thing, nature knows. The stars are talking to us, the earth is talking to us but we just don't seem to be listening. The Mayan King went on to explain we can tell if a hurricane is coming by looking at nature, how a butterfly flies, how much rain there will be can be depicted from whether an owl is resting in a tree or on a roof, the way the leaves of a bush turn in, it is all playing it's part in talking to us, we are all connected.
In keeping with this theme Mother Nature knows, the book Anastasia came into my space, if you haven't read it I thoroughly recommend it. Anastasia explains how if you hold a seed under your tongue for 9 minutes and then plant it with a droplet of your spit that the plant will go on to bear fruits that hold all the necessary substances that you need to heal any ailment or disease within your body. It will work together with the plants in it's surroundings area to ensure that this happens. Surely this is what we should be teaching in schools? How did we ever forget that nature knows, how did we become so disconnected to the heart beat of Earth? It is time to make a change.
 As 11:11pm came around everyone had whittled away and 4 of us remained, Vaz, Carlos, myself and a beautiful priestess called Katie from Texas, 4 of us marking the 4 directions, we carried out our own ceremony and talked about the synchronicities that had led us to this point. Magic is happening, change is here and we are here to re-birth this time of change together. The people that are coming into our lives are here to mark this time and ignite our souls as we share these stories. It is this very act of sharing and sharing this feeling in our hearts that will bring about change.
I came away from the night with many emotions floating around me a sense of unity standing strong and within that the realisation that all we need to do is make ourselves happy, really that is it! Mother Earth can feel our vibration on such a deep level, she can feel our hearts and it is with our hearts that we will make a change. It is for this very reason that in making yourself happy you are saving the Earth too. It really is as simple as that. We dont have to set unrealistic goals or put pressure on ourselves to do anything. Start with each moment and start small and think right now, what would make me feel happy and go from there. When we are aligned with our hearts the whole Universe transpires to work with us.
And so this week I have stopped and looked at everything in my life, as Carlos predicted big changes are about to happen but nature is making my heart sing and keeping me alligned. Thank you Mother Nature for all that you bring.
Blessings on your journey. One Love (for more information about Carlos and his work http://serpientesdeagua.com/)
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 Well a lot can happen in Mexico in a week! We've been wondering whether its the same in London. How are you doing with the shifts? We'd love to know. The rollercoaster is full on, and we are have been trained in such deep ways. We'll share all in our next blog our full on dive into the dark side!
So, in comes the internet cafe. Would you believe it, me and Carly are running the London College of Spirituality from a random internet cafe in a town in Mexico, and its in this town that after 9 years, I manage to finally finish and publish my book! One thing we have noticed, everywhere are the numbers. They are following us all over. The 333's are everywhere. Not sure what the Universe is saying with it, but its def shouting loud and clear! As I look at the clock right now its 11:33! No joke, its that intense with the numbers.
 Check out the iphone picture here, the time 3:33 and 33% on the battery - you'd think I waited till that time in the morning but thats when I got up in the middle of the night to check the time! So yep the numbers, Im starting to realise the Universe is run by 5 year olds....My kind of age group!
After checking into room 33 at the hotel, perfect for my 33rd birthday! This is going to be a full on year for me I can feel it, and for all of us. I truly believe that admist some of the planet's most seeming chaos, it will be those serving the light that will find themselves and be abundant. The Universe and Gaia needs you and everything has been planned to such precision, yet still somehow managing to account for our free will. Whats amazing about our experiences out here is that we have been going deep, deep, deep undercover with all our "stuff", and we are so in it its difficult to see how much we've transformed. Yet I'm now seeing in myself and others just how much the new consciousness has been raised. So if you're feeling stuck and "waiting" for the next step, I'd say, enjoy the silence! Things are about to get very busy, for everyone.
RIP Laptop
For those of you who know me, know that me and my laptop have had a long up and down relationship over the past 2 years. My laptop has served me well, through the ascension, everytime I'd go through a personal shift, my laptop would reflect this and dissassemble itself and I´d have to repair it. Its gone through everything from system crashing, not powering up, having its operating system replaced about 7 times, been from Hawaii to the stretches of California. And now finally in Mexico it gave its farewell bid. And did so in style! Picture this: Me and Carly talking in the hotel room, about to leave and suddenly Carly sees a massive white flash next to my face, is about to scream her favourite "Oh my gosh", gets half way and then my laptop literally blows up and catches fire! I run over to put it out and the fire goes out just as quickly as it came. So bye bye laptop!
 I have my shamanic session with Carlos the shaman, and incredible that during the 5 minutes of my "past healing session" to release all pain related to my female side, its starts raining like crazy and there's not a cloud in the sky! The rain lasts exactly the length of my past healing, five minutes not a second more, and the shaman says "Gaia has heard you, you are one of her children. She blesses you with her sacred waters, and she reminds you she is your divine mother. She reminds you not to worry". Good old Gaia. I have to say I have a passion for Gaia and always had and am now just beginning to appreciate just how connected we are all to her, in a much more magical way. I used to connect upwards to the Unvierse for guidance. Mostly now, I connect downwards to Gaia, for she is the one guiding me, to all these places. And like acupuncture needles, we are all injecting Love into the planet at her meridian points, as she is asking us to. Everyone is exactly where they need to be, I've been shown many times a vision of columns of energy - where each individual is a unique frequency, a special song of vibration that sings out to the Universe. So wherever we are, we are synchronising with the energies of the particular location we are in, uploading and downloading codes to Gaia. Feeling tired quite alot of the time? You're a very busy bee!
As we travel down, I find that speaking Spanish in Mexico is becoming more and more necessary! Carly's Spanglish involves making English rhyme and raising the sentence up at the end. "Can you take us to Tribal Village?" in English when translated to Spanish (via Carly) becomes "Takey us to Tribally Villagey?" Somehow the spanish-only speaking Mexicans understand Carlylingo even if it makes me cry with laughter down to the beach. The sea in Tulum is beyond beauty, pure turquoise waters and the energy is so healing. After everything we've been doing, the deep inner work and the crazy journeys, this was a divine blessing from the Universe.
A few thousand mosquito bites later (my hand looked like a baseball glove the next morning) we got ready for the 11/11/11 ceremony. As Carly shares, the experience was incredible. Full moon, Mayan King, amazing souls, including a beautiful divine feminine from Texas, Katie, who me and Carly connect with really deeply. I see Carly have an instant connection with the shamanic rituals here, and see I'm starting to see a sacred goddess awaken within her, something ancient. A deep respect and understanding for Gaia that I believe must come from lifetimes of service and love towards the Divine Mother. Gaia has always been speaking to us, it seems we are re-awakening to her voice on a very deep level again. These are truly amazing times.
 Orb City
During the 11/11/11 evening briefly to go back to our hut to get the camera, I came out take a few pictures of the full moon over the sea because it looks so beautiful. When I looked at the photo on the camera I saw the most orbs I have Ever seen! It was pitch black out there apart from the moon (which you can barely see through the mammoth amount of orbs here!) There was literally a party of beings on the beach! To see them in full quality, click here
Speaking earlier of the shifts that we are all experiencing, we have been experimenting with many varieties of healing methods. One of the most powerful has been visualisations coupled with intentions. One day at Chichen Itza, Carly came out and did an amazing exercise where she spoke to her past at 7 years old, 14 years old, 21 years old and then in the future at 35 years old! We tuned in, and it was incredible the emotions that were coming out. This has been merged into a meditation with an Akashic Records visualisation that I use to heal my past, as we shared with one another. Everything we experienceing we want to share, so we decided to turn this into a meditation. (Akashic Records Meditation). The incredible thing about our experiences is that, one we are going through it (and believe me we go through it out here with the energy shifts!) and two, as we find out ways to solve them for ourselves, they become tools for others. And this is the same for all of us. Everything you do, to heal, transform yourself, is a tool for another. We are being trained guys!There are many changes occuring on the planet right now and so many people are going through emotional changes and fluctuations right now. Its so important that we come together and support each other. And these times are so precioous in showing us what is left within us that require love, whilst also showing us that we are all in the same boat, flowing down the same river to the same destination! Turn to another, a friend, a family member and show the love that you would love in return. This new world is being created through pioneers of love such as yourselves, making a difference.Blessings, Love One Love Donations
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 Moving from Shasta to Mexico was like moving from the crown to the root with a bang. I realised how much of a dream land Shasta was and it was time to ground some of that magic in.
Vaz and I arrived at the airport not sure of how anything was going to go. The whole idea had come up initially because My Mum had a friend staying in Mexico, she hadn´t spoken to him for 15 years but he "randomly" got in touch saying that he was staying at a beautiful eco community and we were welcome to come and visit. We knew this opening had come up for a reason, the retreat was up for sale and part of me was wondering if this could end up being the community that was aligned to our vision. Vaz and I headed out to the middle of the jungle and found ourselves in the most beautiful place, looking around it started to set in that we were actually in Mexico!
 After sinking in for a few days we were keen to explore the land and get a feel for the area. We found out that the the pyramid of Chichen Itza wasn´t too far away. The joke of it was Vaz and I had been thinking of going to Peru to go and see this temple and it turned out not only to be in Mexico but only a few hours down the road, a bit cheaper than a ticket to Peru! Charlie said he would drive us there, we packed a picnic and I packed 2 days worth of clothes... 2 weeks later we were still there! It is amazing what you can survive on, 2 pairs of pants, a handful of coins and a smile on your face.
We realised we would be there for the 28th October to celebrate the end of the 9th wave, this was feeling magical. We kept looking at each other and laughing we were there with nothing, picking food off the trees, washing our clothes in the sink but somehow this was working out.
 The 28th came and we felt extremely humbled to be at the temple that was designed to mark this very day, a cycle starting 16.4 billion years ago, it was quite a lot to get my head around. It was as though the Earth had called us there and although I could not understand what was happening I knew it felt big. The wisdom that the Mayan´s held at the time this temple was created was so cosmically precise, their vision resonates with me on such a deep, deep level. In many ways I was home! We sat there as the central sun aligned with the pyramid and we celebrated the end of the 9th wave. It really is a time for change. Vaz and I felt waves of energy pouring over us and we moved into a deep space of healing.
A re-birth a minute seems to be happening at the moment but this was quite some change. I felt myself pulling in all of the aspects of my self that I had hidden. I love to focus on the flowers and the butterflies but what about the darker parts of me. Good luck Vaz I was thinking, this is going to be an interesting movement! As soon as I had sent the intention to integrate these parts of me it was amazing what came into my space. Spirit was giving me an opportunity to bring forward the parts that I had hidden and embrace them in full flow. This started with me getting angry. Someone came into my space and seemed to play out what was needed for me to move through feelings of betrayal. I suddenly thought how many years have I felt like this and allowed these types of things to happen? Am I just a push over? Apparently yes I am. I always try to look at the higher view of things but it was as though I was suddenly being pulled down to Earth and being shown to look at things from a grounded view so that I could bring the two ways of thinking into balance.
And so the week started with me standing up for myself, still staying it in a place of heart but also knowing that it is ok to feel angry. For the first time I realised that anger isn´t something to hide away, it is a gift, it is power, it allows you to feel what is right and wrong, in this particular case it was showing me self respect and for that I love my anger. Feeling the emotion and then bringing it in to balance through your heart is powerful. Believe me this a breakthrough for flower power Carly! I was finally embracing my dark side! Realising that there is nothing wrong with any emotion, it is simply how you express it.  The inner journey continued and Vaz's patience and understanding allowed me to flow into this. It was amazing to have this support and feel that we really don't have to do things on our own. I know personally I always try to battle on, be a warrior try and take everything on alone but those times are gone and feeling that and releasing this from myself bought such a relief. It is time for the the divine feminine and the divine masculine to come into balance and this journey can be taken together. My journey started with looking to integrate my masculine side, I was in the right place, the energy of Mexico is very masculine, Vaz was looking to integrate his feminine side and I held the space for him in a nurturing way and allowed this to happen. We moved through this with blood sweat and tears, 3 physical wounds on my right leg (right side is your male side) finally healing and tears from Vaz we seemed to be integrating just perfectly :o) In removing our warrior shields I realised something amazing, it is ok to feel vulnerable, it really is. We are here in a country, stripped of all of our comforts facing these changes and we really are vulnerable, I was scared to face things that were coming up and that was ok. Admitting that to myself was something in itself but a new power came with it, a gentle power, one that was still aligned to my heart and in it´s purest form.
In the middle of all of these changes, movement and change were happening on the outside too, it really does depend where we are at internally as to what comes into our space. An opening came up to take on the eco community through December, at first this felt so amazing such a gift from spirit but then we realised that the energy at the root of this offer just wasn´t aligned with our hearts. There were lessons still to be learnt with this offer. The vibration of the community is so important to us, it has to be aligned to the purest part of our hearts and so we realised in this instance it would be best to walk away. Stood in the middle of Mexico with no secure plans, walking away from this offer felt BIG but it made us realise the strength of the vision we had for this community.
And so we stepped forward with faith in our stride, the next step, to go within. Get the energy right inside and the outside will flow. We are going to feel inside of us allign ourselves with the purest part of our hearts and from there we will watch what comes into our space.
 As we walk away from the community, ripped of all safety, all knowing, we move into the unknown of the jungle and the unknown of ourselves. Our next stop we are heading to Tulum where we will be for 11.11, an e-mail came in from someone in London with details on it and we followed it. Here Vaz and I will move within, we will create from inside and see what comes out :o)
See you on the other side, have a beautiful journey. LOVE xx
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Mount Shasta behind the scenes, Nevada City & Mexico
Ok, this is Epic. Read at a pace!
Ever since I came out on the Mount Shasta retreat, there are many phrases that I will never forget and I’ve decided to write a blog about all of them. One of my most memorable (which is not very hard to remember as its still going on) is Carly’s infamous saying "I'm going within". What follows is what essentially became Carly Goes Within versus the Universe, and one of the most hilarious series of events Ive seen as One Woman takes on the Universe. You just dont take on the Universe right??? Not if you're Carly Gilbert. As always there is a morale to the story, and for those of you who know Carly will know that she is always tapped into something....
Out in Shasta moments prior to a retreat with 44 people, you might think its not the best time to feel you want to go within, Carly knew what she wanted. I listened as she explained her intention to go deep inside and understand herself. Completely understandable I thought, as what a better place than Shasta to do this!
 As each day dawned and each day brought in a fresh set of infinite possibilities, I would see Carly and she would state with her infinite enthusiasm that today is the day she is going within. Yep, I thought, perfect day for going within. The headwaters in Shasta was very close to the cottage we were staying at, and marks the beginning of the Sacramento River. Each day people from all over Mount Shasta, and beyond, come to drink from the sacred headwaters. The waters are actually melted glacier water that comes from within Mount Shasta, and so carry the energies of the mountain. Drinking it is like drinking liquid light, starting a dance within your body. Every cell absorbing the beautiful frequency within the waters. It was our daily ritual!
We arrived at the headwaters and Carly with her writing pad and pen, ready to go within, and record it. I looked over at the headwaters and breathed in the pure Shasta air. Carly, Simon and myself talked about the upcoming retreat, organising some more and generalyl in awe of life. The Shasta energy was doing its magic.
 A few hours later we were up at Panther Meadows, 10,000 feet up on Mount Shasta. Panther Meadows is one of the most beautiful places I have ever seen, the last two times I have come to Shasta it has been winter. And when its winter in Shasta, its WINTER ! Snow falls up to 25 feet, which means that beyond Bunny Flat (which is 7,000 feet up), there is literally a wall of snow that cannot be passed. it covers all trees. So this was my first time to Panther Meadows. And what an incredible sight! I have never seen colours like this on this planet like I did that day. There is something about the light at that height and of course, it being Mount Shasta. Myself, Carly and Simon walked up to the meadows and began to do some sound healing on one another. The greens of the trees and the blues of the water was neon and bright in a way that was totally off-worldly.
We noticed a woman walking along with her dog and said hello. Later on that afternoon, the woman came over and she began talking and said her name was Chula. She asked whether we would like to come to the top of Panther Meadows to a spring. A being called Philip suddenly appeared out of a nearby tree, and we discovered both Chula and Philip were from the same town called Nevada City (a very small town in California that would soon become very significant on our journey). They did not know each other and we all walked along happy at the beautiful encounters we had just made. We followed Chula and we sat down by a spring where water emerged from the ground. Here she began to sing beautiful sacred songs to Mother Earth that we sang along to, praising Gaia and reciting Native American music. Philip took my crystal wand that I had brought out with me, and offered it to the nearby invisible Light Beings to hold. Shasta was definitely going to be interesting this year.
We went home amazed at the magic we had just experienced, the Universe showing us that life is pure unfoldment, everything open to a divine experience should we wish to experience it. And by letting go of anything and simply enjoying, we realised that Earth does not need Heaven to come to it. Heaven is already within Earth, it is simply waiting for us to see it.
I looked over at the brand new writing pad Carly was holding. Carly's last words before bed, "Today was AMAZING! This place is incredible!!!! I love the way the Universe works. Tomorrow I'm definitely going within!"
 Five days later, as the Shasta retreat began, we were in full flow of our organisation, and Carly hadn't managed yet to go within. The organisation for the retreat took every ounce of our improvisation and willingness to flow with Spirit. The group dynamic within the faciltiators was once again, perfectly designed by the Universe as it worked out that we had to truly balance between free-flowing and being grounded and aware of what was needed on a real level. Everything I was about to learn over the next 9 weeks, until now (and am still learning) is about balance and harmony. Moving from duality to Oneness! Balance of all aspects of ourselves. The cosmic connection and groundedness. The male and female. The responsiblity and surrender.
The Shasta retreat ended and we all began to integrate just what the hell had gone on in the space of a week! As we moved out of rooms and moved back to the cottage, things didnt slow down as we anticipated, they sped up! We seemed to meet incredible people that were aligned with our hearts and passions. Who wanted change for this planet, and had answered a mystic call to leave their homes and begin a journey. We realised we weren't alone. What call had we really answered? Why were we really travelling? We knew we had the call to begin a community, to provide a sacred space for a new way of life, yet we also realised we had no idea hwo this would work, or why it was so deeply engrained within us that it would work! We had trust and faith, and were following a vision in our hearts. Seeing others on the same path made me realise something truly phenomenal was occuring. Which on some level I beleived, but now I was seeing it. This Shift is Happening! And the Universe has called its lightworkers to arms.
Over the next few weeks we discovered many beautiful souls and learned a massive amount from our interactions with them. We were learning about ourselves on a monumental level. As has been experienced by so many, the Universe is using everyone around for dynamic reflections on the ultimate level right now to allow us to see what isnt serving us - to allow us to be in the total flow and infinite source of our own love. Carly had by this time learned to speak to people, turn to the side mid-conversation, tell me she was going within and continue the conversation midflow. Amazing
A key day came up as many dynamics were playing out with the group, no one gets away from the Universe at the moment I thought at that time! I realised how deep the Universe can go with me, as I delved deep into my "stuff". Carly looked serious.
Carly: “Vaz, I need to go within”
Vaz: “Ok, what are you going to do?"
Carly: “Go within. I need space from everything, and go inside to find my answers. I need to go tribal, let go of everything and be just me and the Universe"
Vaz: “Do you want my tent?”
Carly: “No, I don't need the tent, I need to do this on my own. I have my clothes and I'll find a way to sleep up high on the mountain, miles away from the cottage so I'm totally free to experience myself.”
After she took my tent, she disappeared and I went out into Shasta centre. When I came back, she had gone and I presumed she had left for the mountain. The next day, she emerged and looked like she had been dragged through several bushes! "What happened to you??!"
It turned out Carly had ended up at the campsite that literally 1 minutes walk away from the cottage. And her tent was set up that it was facing our cottage!!! So much for getting away!
Universe 1: Carly Goes Within 0
I watched amazed now at how the Universe was insisting on maneouvering Carly into not going within, or so I thought. I assessed at that time that maybe we werent supposed to go within, and we were meant to also share with others. Whilst this was very true, I was soon to learn a much deeper truth!
 By the end of Shasta (we stayed there for 1 month in total) a few of us were parting ways. Carly "a million percent" determined to go within by now, was going north to Ashland. I headed to Nevada City, the town where Chula and light being Philip originally came from. I had made my way down with Ruben, a soulfriend who had come to the Shasta retreat, to help out Chula who was organizing a fundraising party for her project in Mexico. Yes synchronistic enough that Chula who we had originally met on the mountain was also involved in work in Mexico! Myself and Ruben travelled down and were helping her out on the land and it was a great way of zoning into the land.
There are certain towns, places on the planet that the moment you enter, you feel something. Something deep. Nevada City was one of them for me. Raw nature. I had a deep feeling of nostalgia as we drove in. It was like an ancient mystical English town with witches. The whole area had an incredible magical feeling about it. Was there really a palce beyond Shasta that would also feel like a Home!? Apparantly.
 Each day in Nevada City for the next week I helped out on the land, clearing Chula's incredible property for her fundraising party. I met beautiful, amazing souls, ran every morning in the pouring rain and stayed in her trailer on her grounds. Everything about this trip already was showing me about basic living and living basically was suiting me fine! The free spirit within was out and about.
A few days into the week I speak to Carly on the phone. Deep in peace and bliss I expect a similarly deeply peaceful few days from her side as we seem to match our experiences so much.
"Vaz, I tried to go within. I took extreme measures and went camping on the mountain in Shasta. I took the tent....I woke up and it snowed!!! I only had flipflops and had to be rescued from a family who just happened to be driving by!!" Universe 2: Carly Goes Within 0
What should be pointed out here is that Carly is the Madam of Synchronicities. No matter what situation she is in, she manages to manifest an insanely out of this world response from the Universe. She visusalised in her mind a family driving past to pick her up, and thats exactly what happened on the mountain. We are all capable of incredible manifestation - essentially what I mean here are what we'd call miracles. And it takes great faith and intention to allow this to occur. Everyone is able to do this in various ways, and it is often when we are pushed we are shown just truly how powerful we are. What I was shown in that moment was how miracles are just waiting to happen if we believe in them. Miracles are constantly happening anyway, yet they are also waiting to be born through us!
 Divine Masculine & Divine Feminine
In Nevada City, I went to talk that evening with a man called David Fabricius who runs a program called Men of the Code. This program is designed for the new masculine to emerge, through a series of experiences. I have been talking to friends for quite some time about the Divine Masculine, as it seems to be not as prevalant as the Divine Feminine in spiritual circles. What about us men! I could talk for hours on this, but there is a strong passion I have about the new men recognising their divinity and being afraid of their masculine power - as it is new and has integrity. David worked as a very successful motivator for CEOs for many years, until he changed his work to focus on empowering men and creating change through integrity in corporate circles. His program essentially focuses on the Native American way, where adolscent young boys are sent out into the wilderness for 3 weeks to "find themselves, go within and hear the Universe's call". I hear Carly's voice in my head.
David says that this time allows men to let go and become a man; and because this is not practicsed in western circles, it creates massive suppression of energy within men as they constantly seek to release this. He says that men seek sexual relationships trying to release this energy and never being satisfied - and that sex could nver satisfy this urge because it is a deeply masculine desire to know oneself and one's purpose. I listened facsinated as he talked about the Native Americans sending a young boy to the top of a hill, whilst his family and friends would be at the bottom, singing, praying, and sending him love, to let him know that they are there whilst he goes through his process. And the process is to strip oneself of support, food, and even water, to know that one is provided for by the Universe. and to know that is to experience it. After this experience, it takes the aggression out of men as they realise their purpose, and channell it into divine masculine love.
David's program involves crawling across broken glass naked and walking through fire, to allow the new men to understand their power, instead of spending a lifetime seeking to know it through dualistic experiences.
Im so signing up I think! (one of my many passionate genuine desires that never occured, but a sign of what I want to explore about myself!)
On the other side of the cosmos, I speak to Carly and she tells me of the incredible experience she has just had. Where she has a cosmic rebirth with three other women and a priestess at a divine feminine temple! They curl up into feotus positions and rebirth into pools, feeling the love and dancing into the Oness. We laugh at the fact we are both being called into divine genderness, and the way both are being expressed. One through nurturing love and the other through naked jungle crawling.
 Nevada City turned out to be an amazing experience with the fundraising and we met so many beautiful souls. The party was an amazing evening, with live music on her grounds and we totally danced it out for Viva La Milpa! See Chula's website for more details on what we were raising money for. The fact that we were guided down to Nevada City to help a complete random individual that we had just met weeks before, and were pivotal in her fundraising campaign said it all to me. There is something major going on, and we are ALL part of the grandest shift the world has ever known. No matter how large or small we think our part is at the moment, it is ALL monumental, for everything is inextricably linked.
As you'll discover from Carly's blog, we are in Mexico. And Chichen Itza was probably the most hilarious expression of Carly Goes Within versus the Universe. I am not joking but every single day I heard Carly say that she wanted to go within and find a space to do this, and each day, the Universe would ensure that this wouldnt happen. I actually saw the Universe bend space, time and rejig the Matrix to ensure that Carly couldnt go within nor could we separate to allow this to happen.Carly Goes Within 0: Universe 100 What I was realising was there are both choices and a Divine Plan occuring right now. And I began my ongoing journey of trying to understand the relationship between free will and destiny (yep that old chestnut). What we found out was that there were infinite realities and possiblities ahead of us, yet we were also being guided towards a specific path. Of course this had to do with our paths and the work we have to do with the community. There is something amazing happening guys, and its happening to ALL of us.
So, here we are, 9th November and guess what??
Vaz and Carly are going within!!!!!!!
Yes, all that time I laughed at Carly's intent on going within, I realised that deep within I wanted to go within too but just didnt know it! And it seems to be a very significant call to the planet and to all people right now. Spending time to ourselves, to our thoughts, our emotions, LOVING YOU, is so crucual right now. The energies are speeding up, they are increasing, they have one agenda - to make you LOVE You! They are ruthless now and want you to feel Love, be Love, live Love.
They do not care about your desires, your future expectations, your wants to be in a relationship or have the perfect career path. They only care about one thing, making sure you are in total, absolute love with yourself. Because from there, you will radiate such deep peace and bliss, everything will match that accordingly. And so, I have to give Carly a bonus 100 points for seeing ahead as usual what was on the horizon
Carly Goes Within: 100: Universe 100
MatchedSee you in a few days guys, enjoy 11/11/11 and a little nudge from me, and a BIG one from CarlyWhy not go within?
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